The OutCome

[03 Jan 2009 | Saturday]

The OutCome Theres 2 Sides to everything... Deeper in the soils of myself - im left with this void annoyed to the point im zoned in2 this hell - destroyed was my original inspiration - my hearts now deployed blueprints scrapped as i freehand commands - thru the filtered noise Traveling over life's natural essence when men part from the boys Art Infilitrates my point of view and flocks my thoughts with its convoys im beyond sight - beyond life - past wrongs - not lookin for rights just lookin for food.. continuin to devour these mics im never gonna be satisfied or finished - the rage will never die i dug a ditch for the sensitivity in me - Now welcome to my other side.. Everything has 2 faces 2 sides - some just too blind to face it.. so the Outcome... ive finally been outdone by my other side.. now i cant stop.. i wont quit.. i cant run... everything has 2 faces.. this is the face i've chosen...this is my outcome... I've been frozen in time for years - a stand still image with no reflection a dull period of time like sex with no erection. - im ventin the stress now all the bets are placed and im foldin hands as i ass my aces out the jittering emotions held within turned me into the loud voice in a full house - 1 spouse- a handful of friends - liq in my system and the mic so the world can hear me now... can you here me now? ... good.. time to start dishin out... the turn around.. 09 came now ima hold it down... lotta old flames lost cuz im wettin shit up..the past is over now true story... no drama.. no beef.. no problems.. not yet... but im good.. and if u set.. dont cross the line or u might end up ashed out like the burnt tip of a cigarette Everything has 2 faces 2 sides - some just too blind to face it.. so the Outcome... ive finally been outdone by my other side.. now i cant stop.. i wont quit.. i cant run... everything has 2 faces.. this is the face i've chosen...this is my outcome... Victory will never be - missery will never sleep but i feed off of the neglect and expect to be better than i know i am and never sober a thought n damn my own spirit n live fearless hoardin over immortal sand lookin for the exit like the matrix - wonderin where does this portal end 2 worlds n realms and im stuck n limbo between both of em knowin this - aint all to see.. showin u this aint that's all to me but this is all u'll see .. on the outer shell u gotta travel to hell to reach the other side..cuz i let it die.. and let this be.. my new destiny so i infact outcast myself cuz u ppl aint shit to me... most of those i know live in a 2 demensional world where there aint much to see - not much in there dreams but glitter n glam - too boring for me to join so i expidite myself and live amongst the kings... followin my road zion... this mic treds my path fate chose this one as the one i'll be known to die on.. Everything has 2 faces 2 sides - some just too blind to face it.. so the Outcome... ive finally been outdone by my other side.. now i cant stop.. i wont quit.. i cant run... everything has 2 faces.. this is the face i've chosen...this is my outcome... resolution for the new year is to resign from my regular solutions no longer contributin to a nusence life i got a new sense of myself and im choosen not 2 be so foolish wit pride pacin my way thru this journey as i ride - it's either u or i and im no longer choosin the other side... Kid Def.....09..... the new year came... this is it's outcome

Day - n - Night (Night -N -Day) Def Remix

Day - n - Night (Night -N -Day) Def Remix
i watch the burning flare [ what what ]
knowing that Eternity is there [ what what ]
i fall to my knees and i repent [ what what ]
asking God to forgive all my sins ..sins..

The Night is cold...[ wha wha ]
winds of the immortal souls flow on thru [ wha wha ]
the midnight rain comes down in steady grooves [ wha wha]
the Quiet storm is the metaphore for what ive been thru....thru

ive made many mistakes ,
tho i wouldnt take any of em back
the universe wanted things to play out this way [ wha wha ]
fell to the days now im lost in the night searchin for the wrongs
so i cn understand the rights cuz i dont see the light..
nope cuz i dont see the nights....


Cuz..Day n night ..night n day..
the quiet storm washes my pain away-way[wha wha ]
if i survive this life i've made [ wha wha ]
ill find my way thru the night n days
knowin the quiet storm will come again another day...day..


i been thru the storm [ wha wha ]
from the youthful years up to my adult form form [ wha wha ]
many of you have seen the things i hav seen [ wha wha ]
friends dead n gone ..when you see it all its hard to move on...[ wha wha]
and loves that lost it all ..heart break is such a tragic thing...thing

my heart was vexxed - missery faced me in the ring i pled no contest
couldnt beat down the stress it beat me down - all of it stuck on my chest
and i couldnt move not even to catch a breath - i fell so far - now whats left
i've gather for a second wind so im back again - strugglin thru these
day nights tryin to free my mind.. n stop lookin behind.. i cant fully unwind...
it's the hustle thru these day n nights...cuz

Day n nights .. night n days..
the quiet storm washes my pain away-way[wha wha ]
if i survive this life i've made [ wha wha ]
ill find my way thru the night n days
knowin the quiet storm will come again another day...day..

reality

[10 Jan 2009 | Saturday]

Reality sometimes we're living ina dream far from the reach of reality i wish this could be the day i fathom to see truth to this fictious life for me a life to see i'd like to be true to my word but my words arent too tru to me im telling you this truthfully... so hear me out before the so long ive been so wrong forever how could i let this slide hold on t minus 2 years in countin.. been climbin over mountains.. to get to this point - now the fountain of youth shines on me and where i need to be is an older state. closer to fate so i guess this is gods way of closin the gate.. to give me somethin id never wanna take.. im ready for the break.... Now im back givin u the exclusive view to the life i once knew since i was 2 memories enabled like a slideshow close my eyes and let my mind go .. back way back lettin the images keep loopin let my mouth orchestrate the movement a true soundtrack to music no longer viewed as rap.. its a culture clash poetry spoken melodic in its tone thru a scrap metal microphone never monotone like my life - HD aint this clear but theres no clarity here sane but insanities near as my perception of myself hangs over the pier heart colder from too much exposure to my peers so i let these words soak up all the tears and allow my soul to be reborn for the new year this will be one where i hold no fright but i'll be the one ur most likely to fear the evolution of a soul gaining control learning how to steer a soldier to the game promoted from the bottom now i stand on top n let it rain as i reign to see everythings changed not even me remains the same burried in the depths.. locked down by the chains.. i push to the front as im reintroduced to reality.... my heart skipped a beat my life missed me n skipped to the missery the feature presentation is almost complete the day i saw it all go wrong i changed i ran the other way... denied the pearly gates - and watched death grow from my face.. now i see so much of this world i was left to face... many times i tried to make an exit on a side route.. i was redirected from out of bounds.. onto solid grounds.. now i see it .. the future needs me my point on this earth has not yet been completed so i cant b defeated and i cant let this go wrong.. but for now i gotta do what i gotta do and to u this is so long.... for so long...

d-day

D DAY.

It was all a dream - biggie never died.. pac never passed
Aaliyah is still alive in well bringin r&b back on the map
compton was a peaceful place - and i just came from the world trade the other day
we never went to war - sadaam died from his own people
wantin to reclaim there homeland - are troops were at home then...
Bush didnt have much room to fuck up.. he was president for 4 years..
the economy was coo money was used more for food the fuel ..just more cheer
as for me... im workin on my degree.. school saw iwas doin good n gave more money 2 me
my job was payin well coppin more n more burberry - my girl was in love
i was in love with she... i was good my fam was good .. my friends were tight
tatiana and i often smiled at eachother as we passed one another by...
never saw her without sayin hi...talked for a minute.. til pete would text
said him n big walt just had breakfast .. now him n rashawn wnted to go play ball
....
i'd go back to my roots.. to visit my friends as a youth - George was neva home
so i had to visit him in the booth... crazy kat wit words he helped me get this good
felt weird bein back in the hood.. but i alwys felt safe.. nothin wrong could be done
this was my home n the first place...
....
The rain woke me up..like wtf...how could this be....
whata dream to have so sad...but glad..im still here..
im still livin with all these memories....
when the day comes for us all to be done..
im knowin n hopin i can go back thru my memories and relive everyone..
.....Hi Definition........ Life is valuable... enjoy it....

Cant Hold Me Down

Black out the sun
cuz in my heart
no aura shines
blunted with a dormant mind
emotions torn
as im left on this bordered line
hoardin a world of horrid reminds
im stubborn i'll never see my back
cuz i'll never look behind...
chemistry with people declines
as anger leaks from me repeatedly
ether dreams scream to be rid from me
set free to spread my own missery
but i hold it in
n grow colder then
artic winter winds
marvelin in a motionless spin
with a malicious grin
as i harvest a mind of goodness
shrouded n sins a flood that u put me in
now i see there's no way out
but im comfortable now in my own flesh
and i'll give u 25 reasons why
everyday i love you less

Cuz you already destroyed my life source
we built it you fought it..
gave birth to love
and u opted adoption
u corrupted my conscious
i felt i was monstrous
and the whole damn time
it was u not bein honest
i gave my all to too many
n got rejected like vomit
now im sittin im watchin
girls turn to vixens
the world is sickened
i cant let a womens greed
cloud my futures vision
i got 25 reasons why
ive grown this new resistance


you are my world...
then i have another one...
your all i want...
and now your gone...
scripts flippin oh boy i can keep goin on..
i hold zero malice in my heart
turned sappy canopy
i just cant stand to see
how society has changed,
where the good women be
too many shitty men with shady friends
women become whore's
and consider it "playin the game"
cuz there former man was playin them
2 wrongs dont make a right
and the double standard aint favorin fem's
too many have let go
dominating ideals
that looks are over the mind
all of the time
dumb hot drunk sluts
is all u can find
broke or want to be taken care of all of the time..
Def gon die before
another one of these
is a girl of mine...
and i got 25 reasons why
i can identify all the signs

hook

beautiful intellect
conversations are humble words
and plenty of interests
company is pleasant since
we both can disagree but come to agreements
expressin our dreams
all things we live just wishin to see
end up wantin to be.. in eachothers arms
wantin to scream.. loves confessions
you are to me as i am your everything
nobody cant get inside you
because they dont hold the key like i do
even if we fight u stand beside me
and u kno i'll always be beside you
never look to strike behind you
never stressed cuz i can always find you
always sleepin comfortable cuz u lay where i do
i remember relationships like this
wish one day i'll once more find you
til then i stack the pics and burn the bridge
and keep the ashes in the past tense
and choose to treat ur words like ghosts
never to look back again

Really there

Simply feel the words, and take from it what you will....

we've said so much
how much of it do we mean
the world of reality is in a cloud
shrouded by words we simply speak
lost touch with their real emotions
drift they do with the air
now to question are they really there?

how many times have u said the word love?
and not really meant it the way the word does?
how many smiles have u taken for granted
think of the hugs u've left stranded
do we appreciate?
or do we render ourselves innate..
to real emotions,
to true feelings...
is it the way to be,
for us to remain empty?

we've said so much
how much of it do we mean
the world of reality is in a cloud
shrouded by words we simply speak
lost touch with their real emotions
drift they do with the air
now to question are they really there?

people have a hard time gettin their feelings out
have u ever had a serious feelin of doubt
doubt about the way u feel being accepted
by the other person who's attention ur prolly not gettin
the lack of affection..but love is your drive
the pain is nothing, it's the fuel in which u thrive
true irony of what u need to get u by...
then picture those whom have approached u n tried
to throw the hint... u kno the obvious sign
the hello i want u to notice... how im devoted
to being your one... allowing u to be my only
that person that u've normally called when feelin lonely
imagine how hard they had to push to be real
and how easily u burned their emotions with emptiness
with the bitter lack of appeal....
and we wonder why relationships crumble
ur potential happiness is always infront of you
but u blindly look for somethin u think u feel....


we've said so much
how much of it do we mean
the world of reality is in a cloud
shrouded by words we simply speak
lost touch with their real emotions
drift they do with the air
now to question are they really there?

my walls are down...
im wide open...
waiting... for you to notice...

not focused enough
i devote thus...thy self to love
4 letters..one word...
misused - underappreciated - honestly unheard
so i remain..with a hole..for all of you...
your all the same... u should all be to blame...
but i only blame the one...that let u do what you do
i blame myself only...for gaining the strength
of loving you like i choose to


we've said so much
how much of it do we mean
the world of reality is in a cloud
shrouded by words we simply speak
lost touch with their real emotions
drift they do with the air
now to question are they really there?