complicated

Complicated

i dunno how many people actually come into this realm of mine and read my blogs. I know people do the numbers tell me that much..but i dunno who's reading what..who's liking what and whos not liking certain things... but its fine..cuz i know someone is reading whats on my mind and that makes this purposeful. What i do kno tho is that there is one person who always reads what i write... and that person is who this blog is dedicated to... She introduced me to sleep and many other great things. She's stuck by me thru hell n back.. how or why i dunno.. but im grateful. i just wanna say one thing before i go into my writing... I love you..

Complicated:
this is the story of my life long journey
so many wrongs that right turns from me
so many songs that ive written
now my words write for me
so many loves in my lifetime
y cant one just keep love for me?
maybe she did and i just havent met her
maybe i did but in i just didnt let her
maybe i did but she just isnt here yet
too many maybes but we'll see when she does get
here next to me victory or tragedy
her eyes are all i imagine to see
diamonds in my lifetime cant
be prized like those behind her blink
I thought i was doin the right thing
then reality pointed me towards the truth
now im stuck here in this situation confused
where did i go wrong.. how did i not hold on
i was holdin on but not for the right reason
and that's probably why my head
was changin like the seasons - now im bleedin out the pain
shedding my old skin - and seeing the real picture
finding that real girlfriend.. someone who believes in me
and can stand by me thru the good n bad n remain strong
the love that i need that i can love all night long
she fits the equation - and it makes so much sense
after all this is what i was invisioning before all this
so when ya not off in the distance...and we can commit to it
great we can make this instead of complicated..

[In My Mind]

Can you see it
can u feel it when ur standing there
can u hear it
its everywhere i wish i could freeze this
love i feel inside i cant believe it
this feeling between u and i
its exactly what i needed...the void is no longer my
burdon to be with, im gaining back my pride
i look into your eyes.. and i see my stomach
filling with butterflies.. a guy who feels so strong
and knows its been like this all a long
and to think i almost said so long
to think i almost let you be gone
i see u and all i see is colors... vivid filled with
this cluster of emotions, rushing through my fingertips
leaning me forward to kiss your lips
and send chills down to ur finger tips
any more and we might have to make a trip
to anywhere that is private...
with u i no longer feel lifeless
and i love how i feel like this...
in my mind i pictured it like this
smiles and all types of gay soundin shit.. =]